Who is that in the Mirror?
I have approximately 2 days left to finish my job here at Pyxis Mobile. I have worked full time here for almost 9 months now, 6 of those months counting towards co-op, the other 3 my last summer break of college. Over that time I have worked for the Professional Services, the Development, and finally the Quality Assurance teams. When I say worked full time, I was probably in the office for 10 hours a day on average, but I often played a bit of foosball or did personal things on the internet in that extra hour or more that I stayed in the office. I’ve taken only one week off in this entire stretch, heading down to Myrtle Beach with my girlfriend to catch some rays.
I was washing my hands in the bathroom today, and I looked at my reflection in the mirror, and experienced a disconnection from my physical self that I have only felt once before, also while looking in the mirror. I was shocked. Who is that in the mirror? Is that me? For a few moments, my ego didn’t recognize the physical form in which it resides. That’s my face? Shortly after returning to the office, I was talking to one of my coworkers about something. In the back of my mind, all of a sudden, I began to wonder, “Whose voice is that coming out of your face?” I was discomforted by the thought and hurriedly told myself that I am me.
So what the hell just happened? My best guess is that I’m starting to lose my “individual ego”, or my “sense of who me is” as a result of the drastic reduction in personal time I have alone with my thoughts. My life’s been flying by and haven’t had a chance notice that I’m changing too.
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